school starts again. i cant wait to finish and go start my program. weird coz its prolly the first time when i went to class on monday when i got scared going to the program. i mean ever since i was little i felt that ive always wanted to be a nurse. and now im taking a course towards becoming one (not a course from the program itself) but by the time i went into the class and sat down, it felt strange. the prof was really nice and seems to really know everything about the course. she shared how she became to be a professor and teaching something that really meant a lot to her and her family. i was sitting there listening to her story and out of nowhere my heart starts pounding. i can hear it beat while shes talking about the procedures and activities that we're going to do. but all i could think was, wow this is real! i can't believe it. i thought i know everything (well not everything but some things) about the career i want. but i am so clueless about the path that ive chosen to take. its like threading through a dark alley on where i couldnt see anything and get lost very easily. have i thought this through?? it hit me..

yesterday there i was sitting on the computer and talking to my friends. then ive encountered another one. maybe it was panic the other day. but while i was thinking of what to say next shocked me. motivating another person when on the other end here i am a little shaken and still impeling that they can do it. well if they can, i can too.

"when you are doing what you love to do, no one has to motivate you." im not sure if i really really believe this. well they can. hehe.. but i know that we, us, i myself are the only one who can motivate ourself with God. this is His plan for me. and im hoping to do my best because it is my gift for Him.

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-by kyooot lil kape, also known as, lady bug